羽毛

天空很大却看不清楚好孤独..........小鸟没了羽翼是什么滋味
天空很宽却摸不着.......好想念那自由的翱翔
少了羽翼怎么飞翔

Bored....yawnz....

damn cough duno when then can recover the medicine make me so lethargic.....dun feel like moving out of my house, so not going to Vivo city as planned....so dear getting other friends to go out......sit home to watch music award ba... today woke up a stomach cramp....still groaning.... :=(

Mum went for temples tour with CC, so today no lunch & dinner......duno what to eat.....instant noodles ba....Dad nnot home too, just went to work. Brother still zzzz like a log, probably going out later. Sunday still home damn sian, feel like goingout later if stomach gets better, wanna get new shoes, duno why both my shoes starts to get loose at the same time......so sian have to search for shoes again......bored

好冷

今天连笑起来都觉得很甲, 为了微笑而笑......四周的空气依然承重, 人也变得好陌生....总觉得好冷好冷......

边缘.

i should have board the bus and go home.....or should i say should not go for class. smsing him spell trouble. dun understand why i sms him that i change my location of waiting and get blasted not one day, it's 2 days. just that i nv inform him right away when's he's late and i just walk off to the bus stop alone, bus stop is less than 5 mins away. this short time lag make him so angry.....and he pick this to quarrel. when he reached the bus stop tell him to sit down, he just show me the stone face. drinking lots of water, just wanna get home to the toilet quick, should have board the earlier bus, instead of waiting for him to blast me. to him, it seems like making wait for me is a very stupid thing to do, wait till so "勉强", from his words of anger. walking fast is usual for me and the whole world knows. talking loud/crude is common in my home and closing door loud is because the door is harder to close compare to the old doors. All this become rude to him. say i ignore him.....i nv answer him and duno how to answer him when he blasted, because i can't proof what he didn't see and he already assume everything in his questions instead of really asking me the facts.

he can continue till whole day today blasting non-stop. In his words and eyes i have become such a bad person. his words seems so piercing and i feel like blocking his numbers forever. his every words make me feel so sad and he still dun understand why i ignore him. he keeps dragging in my frd and his words are full of jealousy. This really piss me off. i understand why he want to magnify tiny misunderstanding to a so pessimisstic view. and his point of quarrel is not to make things better and makes the quarrel seems so childish. 在最需要被了解的时候, 把我推向边缘. 我好难过,好心痛. 这是我爱, 我所信任的人吗? 脑袋一片空白......需要时间思索......我输给了自己...........feel so cold and lonely.....still crying to sleep....算了.....我要平静.

i've nv believe in people especially those close to me
i've try so hard to walk out of my isolated world when u say u will make me smile
i believe but your words are so hurting, make me distrust the world outside again
if i can sleep forever, i will not want to wake up again
because i believe eternity is only in dreamland not in the real world u show me

bad day

today is so tiring.......at work got "tai ji quan" with mr rat. rush some stupid old reports that mr rat chuck aside when i highlighted the problems long before. questioned by QC manager from PJH for audit.......damn....maybe in shit soon.....but looking forward to meeting adelin after work.....so long nv chat le......so happy meeting her again. today got guitar lesson. lesson is getting more complicated, am i able to preserve till i master the instrument?......hope so.

after lesson, nv see dear at the door as usual....today lesson off sharply no delay, so i walk to the bus stop myself. i hate walking to the bus stop...the tiling of the floor is slippery after the big rain.walking out of the CC, the path way is muddy and dark.....hate sand getting into my sandals. my bus came when i reach the bus stop, but i nv board. afraid that dear maybe on his way to CC, msg him that i'm already at bus stop, so he can come to the bus stop directly instead of going to CC. but duno why i got blasted for not waiting for him.....when i was at the school door, it's already 9.05pm, and nobody's there....of course walk off la....wait for CC to close meh....anyway i nv demand him to fetch me home, and he nv msg me that he'll be late.....so just take it that he's busy........

hmm.....why giving him freedom of making decision become i nv respect him and taking him for granted. he asked me, am i doubting his responsibility to inform me. but the same time, when he's asking me......don't he think he 's also doubting me? for my normal walking speed, walking from CC to bus stop takes me less than 3 mins ba....and i can't be walking and smsing him while walking on a damn dark route. anyway i did sms him when i reached the bus stop and i nv board the bus and waited for him. seems like only things he sees with his eyes is facts to him and things nv seen is nv happen in reality. i really duno how to answer him, when he seems to assume facts in his mind, how am i to proof? this is not the first time le......i hate words/facts being put into my mouth instead of what really happened..........anyway it's only a small matter....duno why he blow off his top so easily.....quite different from what his family said of his good temper. instead of the usual bad temper me.....i would have shoot off ppl with poison toungue.....i choose to keep quiet to control my temper.....it's getting on my nerves to blow my temper........it's so tiring today....and i'm glad that i'm able to control my temper "忍而化"......

Conclusion: today is a suay day....super suay....

冒险

我们又见面
是什么感觉
难过有没有少一些
假装
一切都没变
记忆徘徊在你我眼前
摸不谢
天堂地域调回地平线
就不会头晕目眩


穿着我心爱的高根鞋
走在荒芜的边界
也许不会有任何的危险
感情本来就是你我的冒险
花言巧语我听不见
爱一个人
什么叫等
花快要凋谢
时间能证明一切

所有感情都叫人难分难舍
我想做个平凡人
平凡爱的人


作词: 秋雨
作曲: Pending