today is so tiring.......at work got "tai ji quan" with mr rat. rush some stupid old reports that mr rat chuck aside when i highlighted the problems long before. questioned by QC manager from PJH for audit.......damn....maybe in shit soon.....but looking forward to meeting adelin after work.....so long nv chat le......so happy meeting her again. today got guitar lesson. lesson is getting more complicated, am i able to preserve till i master the instrument?......hope so.
after lesson, nv see dear at the door as usual....today lesson off sharply no delay, so i walk to the bus stop myself. i hate walking to the bus stop...the tiling of the floor is slippery after the big rain.walking out of the CC, the path way is muddy and dark.....hate sand getting into my sandals. my bus came when i reach the bus stop, but i nv board. afraid that dear maybe on his way to CC, msg him that i'm already at bus stop, so he can come to the bus stop directly instead of going to CC. but duno why i got blasted for not waiting for him.....when i was at the school door, it's already 9.05pm, and nobody's there....of course walk off la....wait for CC to close meh....anyway i nv demand him to fetch me home, and he nv msg me that he'll be late.....so just take it that he's busy........
hmm.....why giving him freedom of making decision become i nv respect him and taking him for granted. he asked me, am i doubting his responsibility to inform me. but the same time, when he's asking me......don't he think he 's also doubting me? for my normal walking speed, walking from CC to bus stop takes me less than 3 mins ba....and i can't be walking and smsing him while walking on a damn dark route. anyway i did sms him when i reached the bus stop and i nv board the bus and waited for him. seems like only things he sees with his eyes is facts to him and things nv seen is nv happen in reality. i really duno how to answer him, when he seems to assume facts in his mind, how am i to proof? this is not the first time le......i hate words/facts being put into my mouth instead of what really happened..........anyway it's only a small matter....duno why he blow off his top so easily.....quite different from what his family said of his good temper. instead of the usual bad temper me.....i would have shoot off ppl with poison toungue.....i choose to keep quiet to control my temper.....it's getting on my nerves to blow my temper........it's so tiring today....and i'm glad that i'm able to control my temper "忍而化"......
Conclusion: today is a suay day....super suay....
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