心跳越来越落
死神在门外徘徊
可能不久就到了
愿望会惋惜
轮回人间却太多的无奈

走

如果走了, 有谁会记得
时间到了, 有何留恋
心痛了, 何时愈合

体会

人有两画看是简单却很艰难,太多情绪很少体会

心

明天会天亮
明天会天晴
明天会呼吸
明会会开心
明天会平安
否

天使与恶魔

黑与白的交战
善于恶的辩论
没有绝对
只在与你相信谁

Thoughts

If my presents does not make a difference in your life
My absent meant no meaning to you
My future won't be affected by your absent

Plan does not fulfill life
Plan set direction in life
If you fail to plan
You've planned to fail

Being quiet does not mean agreement
Silent is to prevent further argument
Tolerance is because of Love

Cry does not mean sadness
Smile does not mean happiness


Promise is invalid when there is no action

Time is fast when you are happy
Time is slow when you are sad

Life is tough
Live to the fullest
In faith to yourself
Falls apart when you give up on yourself
End with least preparation

谢安琪《欢送会》

作曲: eric kwok
填词:林若宁
编曲: eric kwok
监制: eric kwok

来的人已经来我们干一杯祝福你未来
有人说那年的耶诞派对同样精彩
有人说明天的时代要拭目以待
试问谁能残酷坦率表白当下的无奈

有人提议说来一个游戏预言的纸牌
很奇怪命运的轮胎任由扑克安排
欢迎会有新人到来欢送会有故人离开
不要猜为了喝得更愉快最好不要太明白

离开的要离开过去的喜怒哀乐喝下多少杯
多少祝福语一句一句走过人间的澎湃
成为你的未来
离开不留伤害香槟酒一瓶一瓶及友谊万岁
陪大家一起迎接生存永恒的常态
对明天忠诚的崇拜


醉下的醉下来晨曦都将至好好的感慨
多年来从青春少艾成为别人的贤内
明天你要扬帆出海明天我要多赚两块
更应该努力不懈的存在来年笑得更开怀

离开的要离开过去的喜怒哀乐喝下多少杯
多少祝福语一句一句走过人间的澎湃
成为你的未来
离开不留伤害香槟酒一瓶一瓶及友谊万岁
陪大家一起迎接生存永恒的常态
欢送你也不要悲哀
明天也会有欢迎会盛开

Alin - 離開的時候

Charice Pempengco

Charice Pempengco singing in Star King 101307 With (English subs) -



CHARICE on OPRAH Show [FULL] - Charice / Charice Pempengco



CHARICE PEMPENGCO on Ellen Degeneres Show FULL INTERVIEW - CLEAR COPY - Ellen Degeneres Show



Kyuhyun (SUJU) & Charice Pempengco - A Whole New World (Star King 2007.10.13) -



Charice Pempengco - I Will Always Love You -



video taken from:
http://www.imeem.com/people/zwdxA39/video/30jfY_UA/charice-pempengco-i-will-always-love-you-music-video/

My Way

and now the end is near
and so i face the final curtain
my friend i'll say it clear
i'll state my case of which i'm certain
i've lived a life that's full
i've traveled each and ev'ry highway
and more much more than this
i did it my way

regrets i've had a few
but then again too few to mention
i did what i had to do
and saw it through without exemption
i planned each charted course
each careful step along the byway
but more much more than this
i did it my way
yes there were times i'm sure you knew
when i bit off more than i could chew
but through it all when there was doubt
i ate it up and spit it out
i faced it all and i stood tall
and did it my way

i've loved i've laughed and cried
i've had my fill my share of losing
and now as tears subside
i find it all so amusing
to think i did all that
and may i say - not in a shy way
oh no oh no not me
i did it my way
for what is a man what has he got?
if not himself then he has naught
to say the things he truly feels
and not the words of one who kneels
the record shows i took the blows -
and did it my way

曹格 Gary Cao

Elvis Presley

蕭煌奇- 你是我的眼

如果我能看得见
就能轻易的分辨白天黑夜
就能准确的在人群中
牵住你的手
如果我能看得见
就能驾车带你到处遨游
就能惊喜的从背后
给你一个拥抱
如果我能看得见
生命也许完全不同
可能我想要的我喜欢的我爱的
都不一样

眼前的黑不是黑
你说的白是什么白
人们说的天空蓝
是我记忆中那团白云背后的蓝天
我望向你的脸
却只能看见一片虚无
是不是上帝在我眼前遮住了帘
忘了掀开

你是我的眼
带我领略四季的变换
你是我的眼
带我穿越拥挤的人潮
你是我的眼
带我阅读浩瀚的书海
因为你是我的眼
让我看见这世界
就在我眼前

張宇 - 四百龍銀


这里的人家远渡重洋找到他们家
看了几回就要这个六岁的女娃
为了大哥要娶媳妇没钱的妈妈
收了四百个龙银让她离开家
她在厦门过了一夜隔天才上船
身上穿著只有过年才能穿的衣裳
妈妈为她缝了一个像她的娃娃
有它和你作伴什么都别怕
那天晚上的月亮被云挡住了一半
看不见的另一半在要去的地方
也许只能这么想才会觉得分开的只是月亮心还一样!!

二十六岁那年生了第五个女孩
守寡的婆婆跟她说了香火不能断!
刚好有人想要一个初生的女娃
她用虚弱的身子追出几里外
那天晚上的月亮被云挡住了一半
看不见的另一半在心碎的路上
千头万绪在心里转
突然发现残缺的不是月亮是命运啊!!
曲折要重复到什么时候才给圆满
她从箱底找出那个像她的娃娃
有它和你作伴什么都别怕
可是我的心谁跟你作伴

歌曲：傻瓜

歌手：温岚 专辑：热浪

其实他做的坏事我们都懂
没有什么不同
眼光闪烁暧昧流动
闭上眼当作听说

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

傻瓜我们都一样
被爱情伤了又伤
相信这个他不一样
却又再一次受伤

傻瓜我们都一样
受了伤却不投降
相信付出会有代价
代价只是一句傻瓜.

歌曲：记得

歌手:张惠妹 专辑：真实
词:易家扬 曲:林俊杰

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有以后

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说想分开的理由

谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

被

"所爱的人"

被仰慕
被称赞
被疼爱
被支持
被拥抱
被宽容
被接受
被容忍
被关心
被关怀

是什么感觉

不信任
不了解
不谅解
还没解释就被否定
被当成笨蛋
被冷落
被误解

GOD Bless Sarkrini

Today was a long draggy day. Meeting from 10.10am to 12.05pm....eat away 10mins of my lunch again....Meeting from 1pm to 4pm......after lunch.....tried hard to concentrate...almost doze off...Meetings and CAReport whole day......so sian

4.30pm, Sarkrini came in, sat at Slyvester's chair. i waved at him as i usually greet him. He did not respond. A few of my colleagues started to crowd around him. Then i realized that he was badly injured. His left thumb was bleeding badly, his subordinate told me that his hand was poke through by metal. Sarkrini later mentioned that his thumb's flesh has came off. He showed his bleeding thumb, the nail barely hanged on, bones were exposed.........yucks....Slyvester quickly help him to stop bleeding by bandaging his thumb, but not much could be done. He was in so much pain. Shirley said that she saw his thumb like almost crushed. Shibata and Shimoda quickly rushed him to NUH's A&E. Still very worried for him, he's old and has got heart attack problem....GOD please help him.

Feel so helpless....i could only stand there.........i hate this feeling........so sad...if i could be a doc....

Birthdays

Last night when for gathering with SCC pals. About 1 month+ no meet ba. Yesterday was a combination of birthdays of : Diana, Weiming and Cindy. Had our dinner near Worm's house, our old place in YiShun. We said that food quality due to change of chef, but to me the food taste good, maybe they are too used to the old Chef's cooking.
Dear and others went K-TV before we met. When we settle down for dinner, still see Kelvin wearing jacket, then i ask dear, "Is Kelvin sick?". Overheard by Kelvin....Opps.....
he goes -.-", for the first greeting i gave him, instead of asking "how are u?". Opps i was just too direct. I feel that the weather is not that cold, and he's wearing a black jacket in the open space, didn't he feel warm or he has catch a cold. All on the table laugh it off....HAHA. We order for drinks, dear is sour prune juice, it was so sour, i add in Coke....hoho......not bad, but the juice is still too sour , can add half cup of water more....haha..

After dinner, we went to Worm's condominium. We chat, play quiz......drink wine and eat crackers as usual. I had a long chat with Worm's sis, enquiring about the Jap language course she's taking now. She studying at a school at http://www.ikoma.com.sg . Seems quite interesting and the schedule is quite flexible too. Hope that i can go upgrade myself soon.

Here are some photos of Jewelry i designed recently, with Swaroski Crystals and Semi-precious Stones and GlassBeads. Do u like them?



SweetRose


Oriental Butterfly


BlueOcean

Agnes Chan's Circle Game

Yesterday a child came out to wonder
Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star
And the seasons, they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

Then the child moved ten times round the seasons
Skated over ten clear frozen streams
Words like, when you're older, must appease him
And the seasons, they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
Cartwheels turn to car wheels through the town
And they tell him,
Take your time, it won't be long now
Till you drag your feet to slow the circles down
And the seasons, they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true
There'll be new dreams, maybe better dreams and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through
And the seasons they go round and round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return, we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

Back Stabbed

Rainy these days. She was late and met her colleague at taxi stand. They board the taxi to work. X was trying to hard to being nice. She wanted to apply for 1/2 day leave but was rejected. X told her to fill in the card damage form to cover for being late. What the crap? She insisted to apply for leave but was rejected again. No other way out she fill in the card damage form and handed in to HR. Bad......things starts to fall apart. HR found out that she was in fact late instead of card damage. HR called and inform X. X who was unable to cook up a new excuse, answer, " She was actually think of getting leave." He just pushed the responsibility away totally. She felt being back stabbed. X was the one telling her to lie, not she was being the black sheep and maybe blacklisted by HR.

X is so near me too.....better be more careful....Pray that she won't get a warning letter. can foresee that X will be in deep shit to betray his right hand. Politics is on it's way again..........better run before dragging me down again.....don't wanna be sugar cane.

跷跷板

坐在跷跷板上篇左边或篇右边都不会平衡。站在中间，没有站的余地，迟早摔倒。什么是公平？每个人心理都有一把尺，自己眼里看到的，感觉的，想的，说的，别人不一定懂得。做得好没人看得到，做得少批评如排山倒海， 真是高处不胜寒。真的好累，自亲的人不一定是最懂我的人，反而就陌生的人看到了我眼里的疲惫。你还好吗？这个问题是我永远最难回答的问题，总是回答得很虚心虚假。

林俊杰-会有那么一天

一九四三世界大战
阿嬷年轻的时候
爷爷爱他那么多
他们感情很深
但是爷爷身负重任
就在离乡的那夜
给了阿嬷一个吻
轻声说到
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你

夕阳西下鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看著爷爷湿透的眼
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流
轻声说道

宽容与原谅

我能宽容过错与缺陷
不代表我会原谅
我能接受过去
不代表我会忘记
安静不代表接受
无声只是寻找和平
换来的不是谅解， 只有侮辱，误会，难过
空投的梦想，现实无向实现
双面隐藏古墙后
见日真面化成灰
灰遇风双手接不住

傀儡

歌手：牛奶

yeah.this is in invisible man
production chisel(come on)
yeah... dt in the house
bringing in the man with the move
受够你的约束快还给我自由
不想继续任由你摆布
我要走我的路
不相信你不会藏着世界的残酷
总有一天你的身边不会有一个人报复
脱下你的面具露出着你的面孔
甜言蜜语已经没有用
说出你的阴谋
界限已被你超越
我不再对你有眷恋
让回忆就消失在黑暗的宇宙间
不再做你的傀儡
你的枷锁弄得我好累
不再做你的傀儡我有梦想去追寻
不再做你的傀儡
不在乎你到底对不对
不再做你的傀儡
抛弃的爱已经要不回
发现不再为你掉下一滴眼泪
绝望在内心泛滥成灾
脑海已变空白
不相信这世界会有所谓的真爱
我正以为松开我的防备
命运我来主宰
脱下你的面具露出着你的面孔
甜言蜜语已经没有用
说出你的阴谋
界限已被你超越
我不再对你有眷恋
让回忆就消失在黑暗的宇宙间
不再做你的傀儡
你的枷锁弄得我好累
不再做你的傀儡
我有梦想去追寻
不再做你的傀儡
不在乎你到底对不对
不再做你的傀儡
抛弃的爱已经要不回
不再做你的傀儡
你的枷锁弄得我好累
不再做你的傀儡
我有梦想去追寻
不再做你的傀儡
不在乎你到底对不对
不再做你的傀儡
抛弃的爱已经要不回
RAP:到底是什么你要的是什么
做的多的坏事你又能得到什么
劝你最好放弃不要逼我生气
一切由我决定你就赶快回家去
我要我的自由不要你来教我
我要做什么去什么
看什么HOUSE
都由我自己决定
我主宰我自己你就省点力气
先管好自己 oh man CRAZY!
不再做你的傀儡
你的枷锁弄得我好累
不再做你的傀儡
我有梦想去追寻
不再做你的傀儡
不在乎你到底对不对
不再做你的傀儡
抛弃的爱已经要不回
不再做你的傀儡
你的枷锁弄得我好累
不再做你的傀儡
我有梦想去追寻
不再做你的傀儡
不在乎你到底对不对
却不做你的傀儡
抛弃的爱已经要不回

Jewelery Making Course

Saturday afternoon, went for a basic jewelery course by Jee Inspire which i signed up at Suntect Career Fair 2007. The day earlier i've serious sinus...still considering whether to go, in the night i went online search for the location of the place. It's in between Bugis and Lavender, but i know Bugis better so i choose to walk from Bugis which took me 15 mins to walk. I'm just in time for the lesson and soon it started to rain.

The materials and equipments used seems so simple and familiar to me. But the process was not that easy. Beads, pins are all so tiny, so fragile and I'm not that gentle btw. Slight increase in tweeze could make pins to break and beads slipped away. The day I've made 3 pairs of earrings. The first pair was my practical piece. The following 2 pairs were designed by me and got good comments from my teachers and classmates. Comments like unique, good colours match and cute, etc. One of my classmate even want to copy my design, but too bad, the stars beads were out of stock. I took the last few beads. It's has been a long time since i find a day enriching and fun.

Here are my artwork, please give some comments...thank you :)


Orange Pearlia


Qippy



Pearlla Shine

After the course, i went to meet dear at international building, orchard road. dear was singing KTV with Kelvin, YongYao, Chong's sis and Diana. KTV session ends at 7pm. I, dear and Kelvin went for dinner at Wisma Atria. There we chit-chat till 9pm. Kelvin talked about their HK-Taiwan trip and his past experiences and gave us some advice on how to handle some matters.

Dear sent me back home. At my void-deck, dear was nearly hit a rubbish litter from my block, Don't know which idiot try to murder by throwing down an empty bottle. a malay couple behind us also witness it. We are all astonished...damn inconsiderate litter bugs.

平常心

想拥有的不一定是能得到的
所拥有的不一定就是最完美的
人心本贪与恶
如果没有贪与恶， 就不会有神和法律

天主说：“ Love those who dislike me, Pray for those who curse me "

世间能有几个圣人， 平常心去面对就好.

歌曲: 平常心
歌手: 张惠美
专辑: 我要快了

街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗 平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可

Life sucks

What is happiness? Feeling stressful for some time. Is it a bliss to be in a relationship. My answer is no. I still do not feel that i can ever trust anyone in this world except myself, it's so hard for me to see any future given some thorns looming around. there is this big " I DON"T KNOW" in my mind and "DON'T ASK ME WHY". i'm rather sick of WHY? WHY? WHY? There is still lack of some essences such as "谅解，信任，宽容，接受。Before these puzzles are solved, i doubt about the future. No compliance in views can spell disasters to come. These differences are making me sick and pissed off.

One can say love me, do all sorts of things to please....blah blah. But one no compliance with his views, leading to different reactions and blowing up of temper. This really scares me off like angel to devil. Feeling like living on land mines. everything i do is an exam. Things done not really appreciated or seen or felt. Do i need to announce what i do?

Asking myself, am i that hopelessly ignorant, tactless, unconcern....maybe yes.....
I've been trained in life experiences that good people are not suppose to have good blessing. Life sucks. DAMN GOD keep playing tricks on my life. Claim me if u think I'm not fit to be in this world. Living is damn damn damn.....sucks

好景不长在，我选择爱自己多一些， 外面的世界好可怕


魔仙子

羽毛

天空很大却看不清楚好孤独..........小鸟没了羽翼是什么滋味
天空很宽却摸不着.......好想念那自由的翱翔
少了羽翼怎么飞翔

Bored....yawnz....

damn cough duno when then can recover the medicine make me so lethargic.....dun feel like moving out of my house, so not going to Vivo city as planned....so dear getting other friends to go out......sit home to watch music award ba... today woke up a stomach cramp....still groaning.... :=(

Mum went for temples tour with CC, so today no lunch & dinner......duno what to eat.....instant noodles ba....Dad nnot home too, just went to work. Brother still zzzz like a log, probably going out later. Sunday still home damn sian, feel like goingout later if stomach gets better, wanna get new shoes, duno why both my shoes starts to get loose at the same time......so sian have to search for shoes again......bored

好冷

今天连笑起来都觉得很甲, 为了微笑而笑......四周的空气依然承重, 人也变得好陌生....总觉得好冷好冷......

边缘.

i should have board the bus and go home.....or should i say should not go for class. smsing him spell trouble. dun understand why i sms him that i change my location of waiting and get blasted not one day, it's 2 days. just that i nv inform him right away when's he's late and i just walk off to the bus stop alone, bus stop is less than 5 mins away. this short time lag make him so angry.....and he pick this to quarrel. when he reached the bus stop tell him to sit down, he just show me the stone face. drinking lots of water, just wanna get home to the toilet quick, should have board the earlier bus, instead of waiting for him to blast me. to him, it seems like making wait for me is a very stupid thing to do, wait till so "勉强", from his words of anger. walking fast is usual for me and the whole world knows. talking loud/crude is common in my home and closing door loud is because the door is harder to close compare to the old doors. All this become rude to him. say i ignore him.....i nv answer him and duno how to answer him when he blasted, because i can't proof what he didn't see and he already assume everything in his questions instead of really asking me the facts.

he can continue till whole day today blasting non-stop. In his words and eyes i have become such a bad person. his words seems so piercing and i feel like blocking his numbers forever. his every words make me feel so sad and he still dun understand why i ignore him. he keeps dragging in my frd and his words are full of jealousy. This really piss me off. i understand why he want to magnify tiny misunderstanding to a so pessimisstic view. and his point of quarrel is not to make things better and makes the quarrel seems so childish. 在最需要被了解的时候, 把我推向边缘. 我好难过,好心痛. 这是我爱, 我所信任的人吗? 脑袋一片空白......需要时间思索......我输给了自己...........feel so cold and lonely.....still crying to sleep....算了.....我要平静.

i've nv believe in people especially those close to me
i've try so hard to walk out of my isolated world when u say u will make me smile
i believe but your words are so hurting, make me distrust the world outside again
if i can sleep forever, i will not want to wake up again
because i believe eternity is only in dreamland not in the real world u show me

bad day

today is so tiring.......at work got "tai ji quan" with mr rat. rush some stupid old reports that mr rat chuck aside when i highlighted the problems long before. questioned by QC manager from PJH for audit.......damn....maybe in shit soon.....but looking forward to meeting adelin after work.....so long nv chat le......so happy meeting her again. today got guitar lesson. lesson is getting more complicated, am i able to preserve till i master the instrument?......hope so.

after lesson, nv see dear at the door as usual....today lesson off sharply no delay, so i walk to the bus stop myself. i hate walking to the bus stop...the tiling of the floor is slippery after the big rain.walking out of the CC, the path way is muddy and dark.....hate sand getting into my sandals. my bus came when i reach the bus stop, but i nv board. afraid that dear maybe on his way to CC, msg him that i'm already at bus stop, so he can come to the bus stop directly instead of going to CC. but duno why i got blasted for not waiting for him.....when i was at the school door, it's already 9.05pm, and nobody's there....of course walk off la....wait for CC to close meh....anyway i nv demand him to fetch me home, and he nv msg me that he'll be late.....so just take it that he's busy........

hmm.....why giving him freedom of making decision become i nv respect him and taking him for granted. he asked me, am i doubting his responsibility to inform me. but the same time, when he's asking me......don't he think he 's also doubting me? for my normal walking speed, walking from CC to bus stop takes me less than 3 mins ba....and i can't be walking and smsing him while walking on a damn dark route. anyway i did sms him when i reached the bus stop and i nv board the bus and waited for him. seems like only things he sees with his eyes is facts to him and things nv seen is nv happen in reality. i really duno how to answer him, when he seems to assume facts in his mind, how am i to proof? this is not the first time le......i hate words/facts being put into my mouth instead of what really happened..........anyway it's only a small matter....duno why he blow off his top so easily.....quite different from what his family said of his good temper. instead of the usual bad temper me.....i would have shoot off ppl with poison toungue.....i choose to keep quiet to control my temper.....it's getting on my nerves to blow my temper........it's so tiring today....and i'm glad that i'm able to control my temper "忍而化"......

Conclusion: today is a suay day....super suay....

冒险

我们又见面
是什么感觉
难过有没有少一些
假装
一切都没变
记忆徘徊在你我眼前
摸不谢
天堂地域调回地平线
就不会头晕目眩


穿着我心爱的高根鞋
走在荒芜的边界
也许不会有任何的危险
感情本来就是你我的冒险
花言巧语我听不见
爱一个人
什么叫等
花快要凋谢
时间能证明一切

所有感情都叫人难分难舍
我想做个平凡人
平凡爱的人


作词: 秋雨
作曲: Pending

笑翻了

在异乡的百货公司走着走着, 到了一间精品店。望着架子上的绒毛玩具， 看中了海龟绒毛玩具便微笑了起来。 这时售货员走了过来， 好努力地推销架子上的绒毛玩具。不约而同， 她也拿起了海龟绒毛玩具，便极力推销。 我只回答一句 “ 我只是在想念我家所养的宠物乌龟” 。。。。。她傻眼了， 哑口无言。。。。。哈哈哈哈哈。。。快笑翻了 :P

小框框

有一天 我们会长大
有一天 我们会发芽
走出 我们小框框
各自 飘向不同方向

等到那一天 不再想念过往
我们一定会 找到幸福天堂

Why do i

Why everything i say seems so wrong? Why life is so complicated? Why do i bother what others think? Why do i feel so sad when being misunderstood? Should i stand up for my principles or give in to situation? Will there be another person out there who has the same chemistry as me? Life will never be the same again.

沉睡

如果死神再来, 我还逃的过吗

短暂的灿烂也算是美

世上再美的花也会有凋谢的那天

人间的人于事都会让人精疲力尽

事非答案不一定是事实的真相

我好累….想永远的沉睡

Am I Wrong?

Recently dear spend quite a lot on me....buying me things from food to hp accessories. It's nice to receive gifts but i'm worried that he's over spending. i think he's angry that i transferred the $ back to him....still wondering did i do the right thing or am i dissappointing him for his efforts done......:-( i also feel sad when i received his message and sms.

As i do not come from well to do background, i always tell myself to work hard for the things i want to own and not to depend on anyone. If i can't afford that things i want i will save up $ slowly to buy instead to ask parents or anyone to buy for me. In my daily life i seldom receive things, gifts or even ask for help. Maybe because there's rarely celebration of festivals or occassions in my home and not even my birthday.....i can't even remember my latest birthday celebrated with my family. i prefer to earn for the things i need and always remind myself that i must not over spend and become "月光族". Still remember my home economic lesson on "Need" and "Wants", really helps alot in stopping myself from over spending.
我真的害怕会宠坏......

Alone

There are so many changes within my life for the past weeks, something consider abnormal for me, as my life is damn plain. Suddenly so many people come forward to look for me, like old pals, chilhod friends and even 2 strangers i met while sitting on the bench at JP. Is it GOD playing a trick on me or am i still dreaming in my dream?
work quite busy recently. Senior just quarrel with my boss, cold war now. y is my life so abnormal now. There's time i just wanna be alone sometime, time of my own. It's not that i dislike anybody....just that feel that my life need some tidying up.

白月光

彩色的我

我是真的

讓我忘記你的臉

他

他问了。当听见时，我却突然脑袋一片空白不知所措。甚至有点害怕了起来，因为生活的人与事使我 无法信任我身边自亲的人。我想了很久，终于答应了。他好开心，我却还在担心与迷乱。我害怕辜负了他的期望，总觉得很多人会被我柔落的外表骗了，其实我很坏并不是人们眼中的那么乖。

那天半夜我说饿了，他就马上达巴士送了零食过来。 我说我在Sentosa ， 他就马上从家里赶了下来， 是为了陪我看音乐喷泉和吃晚餐。 好感动， 但也很惊讶， 爱情的力量怎么那么大， 让我有点害怕。 他怎么为我做这么多，那我呢？这几天相处下来很开心， 但还是希望他还是会有他自己的空间作他喜爱的事务不必牵就我那么多。很喜欢那种被疼爱的感觉，好开心哦。但是不希望自己被宠坏。

歌手: 张信哲
專輯:寬容

【忘情忘愛】　　

我的整個世界 面目已全非
所有愛恨喜悲 都在天上飛
究竟還有什麼掛念 讓我不能睡
為何覺得如此的狼狽
承受不了你的善變 我知難而退
不管對不對 是對愛不想有所違背

心情再亂、再壞、再無奈
也不掉一滴淚
心上的那個空缺 不求人安慰
雖然寂寞如影相隨 怎麼都不對
只怕藕斷絲連 傷痛會加倍

從此忘情、忘愛、忘傷悲
忘掉你有多美
讓自己沒有時間 沒有機會
沒有念頭要挽回
吞下多少苦澀滋味 你不會了解
不管愛你恨你 都是那麼絕對

我的世界既然面目已全非
什麼愛恨喜悲 都已無所謂


每当伤心时听这首歌, 会有种疗伤于安慰的作用.就这样地喜欢上阿哲的歌.

命运作弄人

最经跟他来往很平密
不知道是有缘还是命运作弄人
不知道是不是我多心了还是他的关心超越了朋友
可能是我胡思乱想
可能在他的眼里我只是一个小妹
他的言语中有一些些明示
听了之后我整晚翻来覆去在分析他说的话
我也不断的在询问自己
很想坦诚面对我们之间
不想在猜疑矛盾中
不想再次让缘分插肩而过
如果是我多疑了就让我继续我之前所规划的未来吧
不想再徘徊在没结果的猜疑, 忘了他

Life is short

On monday when i was at the pantry waiting for my turn to wash my water bottle. A colleague from production dept came in to collect his uniform from the store-room in the pantry. While collecting, he chats with another colleague. As the chat i joint in too, because i heard a very unexpected news from him. An ex-colleage has passed away due to throat cancer. She quit her job about 2 years during my probation period. She was in her early 30s and she said that she quitting to start a business of her own. After she quit, she actually came back to visit us once. She was nice and responsible person. She just gave birth to a son just before she died. She discovered her cancer during her routine preganancy check-ups. Her doctor took some cell sample from her unhealed wound in her mouth to do testing and found out that she got throat cancer. She made her decision to keep her child and eventually has to go for an emergency operation to take her baby out premature. She died not long after that. i'm not sure whether she has seen her child or not. but feel very touched by her motherly love for her child.She actually gave up her life for her child.

On fri, another friend told me that a sec sch classmate has got intestine cancer. Although we are not close, but felt worry for her too....coincidently we got the same D.O.B......but her close friend said that we are quite different in characters.....wonder how will it be like if she and i are close friends. heard that's she will be having an operation on monday, hope that she will win the battle. Maybe visiting her soon, i may not be her close friend but hope that a distant care do help her to fight her battle with cancer. hope that it's not to late to get to know a friend again.

In less than 1 month, 3 deaths and illness news has seems to loom around me....just hope that GOD Bless them dead or alive.......Bad Luck GoGoGo AWAY....ssshoooo~

爱如潮水

Shopping

today went to a warehouse sale near my workplace just across the street. i bought 4 blosters, 1 slipper & 1 winnie the phooh, which are all authentic products. heard from George that a company which sold these products has closed down and was clearing their stock at the warehouse. blosters going at $3 each, miffy's slipper at $3 & winnie the phooh at $2 only. All these would have cost me at least $100 if i bought them at shops. i bought these for my niece & nephew and jiawen & jiajing....but too bad never buy any for myself, it's too heavy filling up 2 huge shopping bags. On the way home strangers stared at me with curious look and kids looked with envy....haha.....if the sale is still on i wanna go shopping again.... there's a huge mashimoro there but too bad, it's too heavy and need at least 2 persons to carry and i don't think i got that space in my home.

George drove me there and carried back 2 bags with him and this was his 3rd or 4th trip already. He almost look like santa claus, all items were snapped up within minutes. when i left my company, GM just came by and saw me...surprise and wondering where did i get these...hahaha

at the bus-stop i called ah ling jie jie. she is currently in hospital now and is about to give birth...hohoho...nephew just in time for the things i just bought for them.....wanna visit them this weekend......so excited

Rumour Kills

one of my colleague told me that there was a rumour circulating that this guy "X" likes me and maybe taking "actions" soon. All i know that he likes to smile at me with a childlike smile, don't why. hope that things will remain calm, and all are just rumours and wild guess. I'm very thankful that "X" always help me with my work and sometimes disturb me so that i won't feel bored at work. but that's all, i just treat him like a big brother. In fact almost every department i go there will be so call "boyfriend", whom they claim or people who try to match us up. Is it a sin to be single? can't they leave me alone. I prefer that my boyfriend won't be of the same working place. I see too much bad work attitude or poor characters which makes me minus them off from my "eligible boyfriend list". For the time being, can people from my work place leave me alone?

重要的是在对的时间遇见对的人,可惜你们都不是。有时会觉得寂寞, 可是目前我很享受现有的自由, 也在默默地等待对的人出现。

Safety at work

Last week when i was rushing out of QC room, i knocked against a stand which was place a the side of the door which was spoilt. My left thigh got a long stretch of blueblack and scratch....i was so pain. but there's so many people around the production floor, i must act cool and bitting on my lips to bear with the pain and act as though nothing was wrong.

On thursday, i strain my back muscles while carrying my NG product for testing. i was trying to shift it to the trolley beside it, but it's too heavy, probably more than 6kg. i never realise it till the nxt morning when i woke up and got a bad back pain.

On friday, i nearly sprain my left toe. after pushing to close my drawer, i was turning my chair back to my desk, when suddenly i felt a sharp pain in my toe. my toe knocked against the edge of the drawer. i don't know why i was so pain, since the edge of the drawer was not even sharp and was round. it was probably because the joint of my toe was knocked against the edge of drawer.

what a week with bad luck =(

My Love Story

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At its core, the Love Conquers All story is very romantic, triumphant, and full of courage to face yourself with honesty. The catalyst for change in your love story is usually a pivotal event, circumstance, or reevaluation of yourself.

Where should you look for these pivotal moments? Challenges may come from family and society — even yourself. Do loved ones disapprove of your partner, raise concerns you hadn't previously cared that much about? Turning points may also stem from previous obligations at work, or in promises you've made to others. Do you reschedule or delay plans with your partner because you feel the need to honor responsibilities at the office? Do you prioritize taking care of a friend in need over the needs of your mate?

These themes are echoed throughout history and recorded in diaries, novels, television and films. In Jane Austin's novel "Emma" for example, the protagonist put everybody else's romantic needs before her own. Had she not stopped to question herself, she would have missed a chance for love altogether. Was she just looking after her friends? Or was she guarding herself from the potential hurt of a relationship or unrequited love?

Ambition to be loyal to loved ones, move ahead at work, improve your home, see the world — these are all good things. But sometimes, they take precedence over your love life — whether you are conscious of it or not. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but think about it. Are you ever afraid of being held back from your goals? Or that a relationship might make attaining those goals a slower process, or change them completely?

Remember Nicolas Cage in the film "Family Man"? Through a strange twist of fate, he's given the opportunity to see life as it might have been had he gotten married instead of pursued successes at work. Though fantastical and magical, he experiences a jarring event, and through it, realizes he has different priorities. He would give up his important job and expensive belongings to be with the one woman he realizes he truly loves. And he realizes that his initial choice to pursue his career instead of pursue his relationship was driven not by his hopes for success, but his fear of taking on the seriousness of his relationship. With this insight, he has the courage to face himself, not preexisting hopes and goals.

Even if fate doesn't throw obstacles in your way, it's possible that you do. Do you shy away from romantic commitments? Do you make excuses for not dating? Do you wish your relationships never progressed passed the lovey-dovey stage? Are the people you date "all wrong" for you? There's a reason you're holding back from pursuing a good thing. You may put excuses between you and another person, or you may intentionally pick the wrong person to give you an out, an alternative to getting serious. The real courage in your love story comes from taking a good look at yourself, and questioning your motivations.

Once you recognize this as your story, you will indeed have the courage and the insight to question yourself and make a commitment, or break with someone before external events force you to. In this manner, Courage is one of the most noble and truthful love stories out there.

In "Notting Hill," Julia Roberts plays a movie star whose career (not to mention awful boyfriend) get in the way of a fledgling romance with a London bookseller (Hugh Grant). In "Autumn in New York," a cheating playboy played by Richard Gere finds himself in love with a dying 22-year-old. Will he mend his ways before it's too late? The love story that drives these plots is the same that drives your fantasies and relationships, which is why these stories can be so powerful. Of course, in the movies it's always clear just whom the lead person should hook up with. In real life, it's quite a bit harder. Love Conquers All, and now you're equipped to find it.

Whether you realize it or not, you might be slightly at odds with yourself when it comes to matters of love. On the one hand, you might be ready for the love of your life. On the other hand, you might want to protect yourself from a potential hurt should that love not work out. Do you view love suspiciously at times? Avoid the traditional trappings of romance — flowers, chocolates, and Valentine's Day? Perhaps you've had your heart broken one too many times, or you so desperately want a true love, that you are almost afraid of failing on your way to it.

At times, you can be fiercely independent. Though, painful memories of a past relationship, or aspirations to success in other areas of your life, can sometimes make you less of a risk-taker in the land of love. Do you have tunnel vision unless a dramatic event grabs your attention? Maybe you equate settling down with the right person as a one-way ticket to the retirement community. You may avoid relationships altogether, or you may prefer to keep them casual. Do you have a reputation for being a player? Do you date lots of people at once, preventing any one relationship from going too far? Or do you tend to make excuses when it comes to romance, placing work or other obligations in between you and a potential lover?

On one level, your love story is driven by an underlying faith that "the one" is out there waiting for you. On another level, you might not want to search for it because you don't want to fail in finding it. Whatever the basis, fear probably contributes to your story, whether fear of commitment, fear of settling down, fear of rejection, or fear of what other people may think. If your partner comes from a different background - social, ethnic, economic, you might be afraid to introduce friends to him.

Fortunately, love is stronger than whatever challenges you might face. Though you may subconsciously sabotage aspects of a relationship to protect yourself, love will likely prove stronger. When given the choice to walk away or take a chance with a soul mate, you will take the chance when it is right. And remember, you are not bound to this love story. Once you understand it and the role it plays in your life, you can make the most of it, or you can decide it's no longer working for you and that it's time to move on.

Love could be staring you in the face, and you might not even see it. The biggest pitfall for you is letting your issues get in the way of a good thing. You need to expand your vision and consider the big picture. If some experience or situation has soured you on love, or has made it too unbearably perfect to stand, it's time to address it! Confidence in yourself and optimism in the future will keep you from missing out on something truly special.

It's okay to have standards and rules, but make sure you haven't built a fortress around yourself. Our values change as we grow older. When's the last time you rethought the direction you're heading in life? Revaluate what's most important to you — not to others, not to the dreams you had when you were 15 or 20 or 31 — what's important to you now, at this moment, at this age? Don't be afraid to change the priorities in your life. You don't get points for following previous life dreams if they no longer represent your current hopes and desires.

Romance for you begins with a sudden, unexpected rush. It's probably a gut feeling you have about someone that you subsequently squelch or question. Maybe the person is your opposite, which is why his contrasting characteristics jar you into noticing him. Or perhaps you share such a strong, common, interest, you can't believe he's finally arrived after all of these years.

Someone who's right for you will probably show up unexpectedly, but the surprise will get your attention. Once you're looking, prepare to be impressed. Did you realize your quiet colleague was also an accomplished musician? Has it suddenly dawned on you that your best friend is attracted to you? You have more fun with your dentist than anyone you've met in ages. Your next-door neighbor cooks like a four-star chef. Who knew?

Of course, you won't see anyone who's right for you, if you're not looking. So lose the shades! If you're dating multiple people at once, why not whittle it down to the one who really interests you? Maybe you should be single for awhile. That might make it easier for someone to approach you. Haven't dated in a year? It's time to figure out why. Look at how you're spending your time. Is one area of your life taking up more than its fair share? Maybe you've met someone you want to be with, but there's some obstacle between the two of you. This will be a true test of your devotion. Overcome it, and you'll form a deeper bond.

It's okay to be picky! Maybe your reluctance has protected you from bad mistakes, but maybe it's prevented you from seeing a true love standing right in front of your face. Now that you understand your love story, you're equipped with knowledge that can keep you from missing a good opportunity. You can take charge of your love story and make it work for you, or move on. Whatever you decide, your independence and courage will take you far in life and in love. Indeed, in your happy ending, Love Conquers All.

Second Chances is your secondary Love Story

The Second Chances love story is rooted in nostalgia. Whether you're longing for the ex you haven't seen in a year, or are reminiscing about the crush you never connected with 10 years ago, this kind of searching is indicative of more than dissatisfaction with your current romantic relationships.

Whether you do it consciously or not, most people who migrate towards the Second Chances love story either want to revise a past decision, confront someone you couldn't at the time, or revert back to a specific point in time. Do you ever wish you could return to a different period in your life?

This story is repeated more times than you could imagine. Take the film "Peggy Sue Got Married," for instance. In it, a housewife faints at her high school reunion and wakes up in her senior year at high school with the chance to change her destiny. The root of your story too, may arise from these feelings, that you need to reconnect with a time in your life when love was a larger focus of your life and responsibilities were much fewer. But it also might stem from other things as well.

Your love story may arise out of regret for the past, or a desire to go back to when things were easier. Did you have a particularly easy, fun adolescence? Have you recently suffered a loss — perhaps a divorce or the death of a loved one — that's made you long for the period before that incident?

Are you acutely aware that decisions carry with them a strong impact? Do you spend a lot of time analyzing your decisions, going over things you've said or done in your mind? Or are you simply sentimental, in love with old books and classic films, as well as your own memories? It's no wonder this is such a common love story. How many films feature starlets staring off dreamily into a recollection of days past? How many books reveal heroes and heroines kept apart in the beginning, only to find themselves together at the end?

Romantic films and books often use this archetypal tale of paradise lost and regained to create some of the greatest love stories of all time. "Casablanca" is one of the greatest renditions of this love story. In it, Rick, played by Humphrey Bogart, is haunted by a brief romance with Ilsa (Ingrid Bergman), shattered by circumstances beyond their control. "The Way We Were," another classic, follows a similar story line. In "American Beauty," Kevin Spacey plays a man who tries to recapture his youth through an affair with a teenage girl. These stories are so powerful precisely because they are so easy to relate to. This historical love story overpowers everybody at one point or another. How this tried and true love story plays out in individual lives, varies from person to person.

How your love story affects you and your relationships
You believe in destiny, that there's someone out there who fate intends for you to meet. But you're not above helping fate along now and then. Do you obsess over photo albums? Search faces on the street and in airports for a hint of familiarity? Have you searched Yahoo! People Search or Classmates.com for names from the past? If you haven't gotten in touch with old flames, you look for their qualities in the people you meet now.

Thoughts of passion might get you a little teary-eyed sometimes. Daydreaming, for you, is a lot like watching an old movie or flipping through dusty yearbooks. Whether dating casually or in a committed long-term relationship, your idea of a romantic evening together is built around nostalgic notions of courtship and manners. You get ideas for activities from old books and movies — a classic picnic on a grassy hill, a walk along the boardwalk, a candlelit dinner, waltzing the night away at a ritzy supper club.

If you're mourning the loss of your youth, you may try to recapture it by doing things that make you look and feel young now. You might try out the latest look, attempt a new sport, listen to the latest hip band, or buy an impractical sports car. Dating younger people just might boost your self-esteem and challenge you to try new things.

However you choose to live out your love story, it's bound to be romantic and exciting. What's the harm in calling up an old flame who you can't get out of your mind? Even if your former love is married with six kids and has a gut the size of a stadium, at least you'll know and can stop obsessing. Why not date someone from the younger generation, reinvigorate a little, have some fun? Love comes in many packages and blossoms during many periods of life. Perhaps, you are tired of living in the past and are ready to embrace the now. Don't worry! Your love story is simply a roadmap that you can choose to follow or diverge from. Psychologists and experts have helped thousands of women recognize these patterns in their own lives and make the choice: Embrace the love story or move on. It's your choice.

How to avoid common mistakes
Your desire to go back to the past indicates something might be missing from your life today, or that your earlier years were a particularly amazing time. While a relationship can certainly fill that hole, it's important for you to determine what besides love you're looking for. That will allow you to fill that need yourself, rather than looking to another person to provide. You may need to let go of past mistakes and regrets, realizing that everything works itself out in the end. It might be helpful to contact the person you're obsessing over, and compare the reality of who they are with the dream you've been nurturing. At the same time, you may need to pull yourself out of a rut by infusing your daily routine with exciting activities and new people.

Once you've figured out what's missing, you can embrace the future and stop worrying over the past. Be open to life. Take some risks. Approach your memories with a healthier perspective. Whether your next romance is with someone from the past, the present, or a special someone who you've not yet met, you can enjoy the best aspects of your love story — the romance, sentiment, and fond memories — without getting bogged down with baggage from the past.

How to recognize someone who's healthy for you
The person who's right for you will share your love of romance, nostalgia, and sentimentality, while embracing the present with gusto. You'll be able to curl up on the couch together and watch old movies, slurp spaghetti at a checker-clothed table lit with drippy candles, and take horse-drawn carriage rides through the park together, never forgetting to try new things.

If you're longing for your youth, a fling with someone young could be just the thing to pull you out of the past and invigorate your present with new experiences. Any person who challenges you to live in the here and now, encourages you to take risks, be open to life, and have fun will be a good match. And you never know. Perhaps the reason that first love was so powerful is because it truly was the real deal.

Just because your love story has grown out from your past, doesn't mean it isn't full of wonderful possibilities. It's up to you to decide how it ends. Whether you reconnect with lovers past or embrace the future for the first time, your experiences and memories will be bountiful; your romance will be one for the ages.

The Other Love Stories and How They Affect Us

Now you know how your primary and secondary love stories have played out in your life. But at some point, you're sure to be affected by all the love stories in one way or another. That's because the elements of these tales are universal — and the traits of one story, are not always so far from the characteristics of another.

As circumstances surrounding your relationships change, you may start to see shades of the remaining stories as they bleed into your life. With that in mind, here they are, ranked in order of how influential they currently are to you. Once you understand them, you can recognize their hold on you, and make a conscious decision to stick with them, or break away.

Loving Too Much(You scored a 8/10 on the Loving Too Much story)

The Loving Too Much story stems from your overflowing love and hope. Sometimes, however, it can be muddied by misguided feelings, expectations and sometimes, an unrequited desire.

The people you're most attracted to are usually just out of reach and all the more alluring for it — like those early crushes on teen idols. The less available your partner is, emotionally and physically, the more desirable he becomes.

You daydream, and your imagination fills in the details that reality hasn't provided. Do you ever seek out indirect contact with this person, visiting his workplace or getting to know his friends? Do you find yourself dreaming about marriage after a second date, or perhaps after a quick affair? The hit film "Fatal Attraction" illustrates an extreme version of the Loving Too Much story — taking it to abnormal levels. What it doesn't fully explore is the capacity for love that you probably possess.

Romantic Rescue (You scored a 7 on the Romantic Rescue story)

The love story that grips you, Romantic Rescue, uses love to give better meaning and significance to your life. Love, in your story, is all-powerful. It is the catalyst to change yourself, help your partner become the person you want them to be, and show the world what you are made of. Some people put themselves in the role of hero in this love story — nursing an ailing partner back to health, saving him from a string of previously destructive relationships, maybe even saving him from a physical danger. Other people with whom you share this story cast themselves as those in need of rescue - relying on their partners to swoop in and save them from whatever ill-fate's been visited upon them, either real or imagined.

In your love story, actions speak almost louder than words. The more present you are to your partner, or he to you, the stronger and faster your bond can develop. The image of one partner as caregiver and the other as recipient of that care, sets up an immediate give-and-take relationship, one that makes your union seem all the more magical.

It also sets up one of the parties as a savior. Though perhaps not as epic as seen in the characters in novels or films, this is significant nonetheless. In Hemingway's tragic love story, "Farewell to Arms," an injured soldier is nurtured back to health and into a blissful romance by a kindly nurse. Not long after, she's the one at death's door. In "Run Lola Run," a woman has twenty minutes to come up with a large amount of money to save her boyfriend's life. How far she goes to obtain it is a measure of her devotion or delusion.

Love vs. Honor (You scored a 7 on the Love vs. Honor story)

Love vs. Honor is the most dramatic love story of all — defined by an innate tug of war between what you want to do and what you should do. There is something coming between you and love. Perhaps it's a religious conviction, a previous commitment, family, patriotic duty, or deep belief that good things only come at a terrible price.

If you're looking for examples you can start back with the Greek myths where heroes were often forced to give up love and the comforts of home for battles in far-off lands. In Charles Dickens' "Great Expectations," Estella chooses to obey her benefactress and break Pip's heart, even though she deeply regrets doing so. Political obligations and previous relationships tear Humphrey Bogart and Ingrid Bergman apart in the unforgettable film, "Casablanca."

Rags to Riches (You scored a 2 on the Rags to Riches story)

Cinderella is the archetype of your Rags to Riches love story, a story that's been retold throughout history in books, movies, poems, and songs. For you, love is more important than expectations, stereotypes and what other people think is good for you. People with the strength of character to pursue their loves despite obstacles and adversity, thrive in this story.

Ah, the American Dream of self-determination. It's the stuff from which true fairytales are made. Your story is about getting your due. Have you or your partner been discriminated against? Have people done their best to keep you apart? Once your surpass society's rules, you and your partner can escape to a happier place your former detractors can only envy. For beyond the initial disapproval of your pairing, is a realization that you were bold enough to pursue a dream, something others don't have the courage to do.

Somewhere in your love story, you dream of waltzing into another world and proving once and for all that you've got the right stuff, talent and intelligence to belong there. Are you ambitious? Do you seek success, fame and basic recognition for your accomplishments? Yours is really the dream of getting your due — a pretty familiar theme. In the film "Pretty in Pink", Molly Ringwald wins the heart of the rich preppy, while in the movie "16 Candles", tough-guy Judd Nelson craves the attention of pretty girl Ringwald.

The Mentor and the Protégé (You scored a 2 on the The Mentor and the Protégé story)

The Mentor and the Protégé is a love story about more than love for love's sake. In it, love grows out of a deeper need to learn and understand other aspects of your love through the teaching's of someone else. Love isn't the only thing you're after. You want power, success, attention, maybe even fame. You want to be recognized, doted on, and adored for your talents. And the object of your desire is the person best suited to provide you with these things — a boss, a mentor, a teacher, or a troubled genius.

This archetypal story is the basis of many great tales of love — usually involving an older man falling for a younger woman. Hamlet flirted with his mother. Jane Eyre fell for her stern, older boss. Jackson Pollock married a less-accomplished painter.

Establishing Independence (You scored a 1 on the Establishing Independence story)

The Establishing Independence love story that grips you begins with desire — not only for someone different, but for exciting life changes, as well. Whether you're looking to grow away from a current relationship, move towards another relationship, or simply develop a new sense of who you are, look for a shift in what you pursue and how you define yourself relative to other people.

These transformations come in the package of another person, perhaps a soul mate but more likely someone you've selected not because of his potential, but for the qualities he possesses as different from those you are accustomed to.

Just as young Juliet escaped an arranged marriage by attaching herself to Romeo, people often establish a separate identity for themselves by dating people who are very different from their parents, or their last loves. If you come from a conservative coat and tie family, maybe a James Dean rebel is the best way to go. If you're tied to people who are defiantly liberal, you might seek out someone who will help you experiment with more conservative ideas.

阿哲要来了

阿哲要来了，一年不见，好旧不见 的老朋友。认识他的歌迷都会与他为 ”老朋友” 相称。一个在我的成长扮演重要角色的人物。他的歌伴我度过无数的悲伤与快乐。第一次看他的演出是当他与刘嘉陵合唱 ”有一点动心” 时的宣传。因该是小学的时候吧，不太记得了。 读书时代，零用钱不多， 中学时只有两块钱而且为了学业，所以限制了自己疯迷追偶像。限制自己只能看电视或报章报道，不能买周边商品或追偶像。在1995年, 阿哲的专辑 “宽容” 销量超过百万，我忍了下来，没买，真是咬牙切齿啊。哥哥不知何时，买了阿哲的翻版精选辑， 里面的几首歌让我影像深刻， “彩色的我”， “不回首” 和 “忘情忘爱” 。

1997年，我省吃俭用了一段日子，买下了地一张阿哲的专辑 “挚爱”。他的歌就是这样陪伴我度过了中学时代。正是收集所有的专辑是在1999年，有一次，跟朋友去逛街经过了Suntect City 的 Tower Records，见到了阿哲许多的旧专辑，简直就是进推两难，因为那些专辑都算已经绝版了，怎么一瞬间出现在我眼前了， 好感动！可惜我没带够钱，于是我隔了一个礼拜后再去。那时我已经带算过了要买几张，一共带了两百多块去把所有绝版专辑扫回来。。。。直到今天，我依然迷恋 着那清澈温柔优美的歌声。2004年，我终于参加了国际歌友会，见到了阿哲， 跟他交谈，玩游戏，掺假慈善活动看演唱会等。。。好开心。。

好久不见的老朋友！

任务

生于这个世界，这个年代，这个时辰， 这个背景。我们都没有选择生于死的权利。
来到这世界， 每个人都有来到这世界的任务。
没人会在一来到人世就知道是什么任务，只有岁月，智慧与情感的洗礼后才揭晓。
任务不一定是什么伟大的事业 流传千秋万世。
也许只是生态的一个角色罢了，而每个角色都负有他的使命与责任。
人的期望于失望主宰了的喜怒哀乐的看法和想法。

选择了这里是天党，这里就是天堂。
选择了这里是地域，这里就是选择了这里是地域。
如知这是地域而选择放弃的话， 那永远只能活在深渊。
因为幸福不是天赐的，而是要争取的。
幸福不是每个人都可以得到，不过曾经努力过去争取，此生也不算是白活了。

健康是福

有好半年没生病了。夏天来了， 造理来说应该不会在常下雨了，真好啊。可是当我与同事去台湾玩时，去了五天却下了四天的雨。真扫兴啊！！！ 还不止下雨， 天气还让人冷到发抖。。。。14°C, 穿了三件衣服都没用。结果呢。。。回国的那天就发烧了。 接下来的三个星期，咳嗽都好不了， 看了两次医生，吃药吃到我怕了。后来好了没几天， 去上班的途中淋了雨，结果又发烧又呕吐。。。好了之后， 肚子又闹涨风。一波一平一波又起。。。。天啊！！！

揭晓

答案终于揭晓了, 造理来说应该是很伤心. 心里有点难过于失望但是就是哭不出来, 可能是泪早已流干了吧. 另一方面却应该是开心的吧, 因为从此不必再背负着猜疑. 你永远都会在我心里的某个地方, 真的祝你幸福.

真烦

我自小时就比较自闭, 不喜欢合群, 也比较喜欢一个人. 长大后为了生活减少了孤僻, 开始了合群的生活. 可能是生活中的波折与经历让人长大, 慢慢地学习着看人, 看见了人性的善良与邪恶. 我自认不是很会分辨是非, 所以也不轻易的相信人. 我喜欢帮助别人, 可是却有些居心不良的人喜欢利用我对他的善意. 我也非常的讨厌说谎的人, 被窝发现了我可能在表面上还是他的朋友, 可是我再也不会信任他, 原谅这种人简直就是不可能. 说了谎如果会自己承认, 我也许会原谅, 就是不原谅那些为自己反错寻找借口的人. 有的还会说些连听起来都会很笨的借口, 真实无可救药.

最近的我, 不知怎么了, 不想出门,不想合群也不太相信人. 最近也在为自己的事业与未来的生活打算. 在衡量梦想与现实, 在寻找平衡点, 想做些自己真正想做的事. 例如: 换工作, 读书, 学习音乐与舞蹈, 出国看看世界. 喜欢的有很多很多, 就是不知如何选择, 也不知道从和开始, 真烦啊~~! (=@.@=).
好想尽快地把笑容找回来吧.

隐形的翅膀

Singer: 张韶涵 Album: 潘朵拉

每一次 都在徘徊孤单中坚强
每一次 就算很受伤也不闪泪光
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 飞过绝望

不去想 他们拥有美丽的太阳
我看见 每天的夕阳也会有变化
我知道 我一直有双隐形的翅膀
带我飞 给我希望

我终于看到 所有梦想都开花
追逐的年轻 歌声多嘹亮
我终于翱翔 用心凝望不害怕
哪里会有风 就飞多远吧

隐形的翅膀 让梦恒久比天长
留一个愿望 让自己想象

lyrics taken from: http://mp3.baidu.com

my thoughts:
A very touching song, teaching us to be strong despite rain or storm.
Be optimistic and be brave for your dreams

Hypocrite

In the eyes of others, u seems so efficient, kind, innocents and plain girl-nextdoor. but once u open your mouth u sucks, words spoken are often sarcastic and loud. Being direct is not a sin but using sarcastic words to proof your wisdom and that u know alot is so low class. So i don't think i need to waste my effort to entertain those low class tactics. Minimum respect for others is essential for worklife. and i don't think your wisdom has reach that level yet and i don't think u can surive eles where when u work for others.

Met up weikang today...haven't met him 2 months. He's lost some weight. On arrival at JE library, spotted him munching on his books. He's there today from 2pm.....till evening, when i'm off work. Afraid that i'm hungry he intended to keep away his books to go eat dinner. I persuaded him to stay as i'm not that hungry yet and he promised that he had one more chapter to go... JiaYou! I'm entertained by the newspapers while he finished his tutorial.

Around 7.30pm, he packed and we were off to IMM for dinner. I thought he was not human, so late le still not hungry, in fact he's Mr Piggy. He argued that being Piggy is good, so many people love pig, but Kang, people always scold "Stupid Pig" leh. We waited for the shuttle bus behind Popular Bookshop, and talked about the comics book which we were reading now.We makan at BayStreet21 restaurant. He chose to be seated at the window seat. His theory is "food served at window seat will be of better quality"...hope so. From the menu, he chose Thai style curry with tomyam soup and coffee; i choose spaghetti with mushroom. From the menu, the dishes look and sound delicious...and our tummy are hitting the drums. When served the food, we were quite disapointed, proportion was so small and my plate was damn huge with a small portion of spaghetti with mushroom right in the center....his thai curry was equally inadequate for a guy appetite. The food was just "OK", i could cook better than this. While eating, the neighbouring table, a group of youngster were celebrating birthday for one of them....so nice......hmmm......it has been so long never celebrate my birthday with a group of people.....wondering when was the last time, already lost count and i never really celebrate my birthday before.......so envy.

We chatted on how's life going on. I found out how lucky i was that i never join university like him. If i took the same course like his, i may probably end up at woodbridge....anyway i'm not that rich yet to go university. What we learnt in poly has been taught in university in barely less than 2 months.I was wondering, if i took up a degree course, what will i be taking?....hope this chat session will not scare me off taking a degree course in future.

Sitting at the corner window seat was good that we got more privacy but slow in service, the waitress hardly notice us....hmm....may consider again whether to patronize that restaurant again. After dinner, we went to Diaso to shop for a display container to put his "mini figurine swords" givenby Gerald for his birthday, but can't get the one he need. So we went shopping on for his sandals, his feet is huge, size 12....like i said "Elephant Legs", but can't get the one he wanted since it's near shop closing time. So we went home, the queue for bus was empty, the bus has gone off, so we decided to walk to the interchange. Weikang commented that i walk very fast, in fact it is my normal speed, as my brother and dad always walk faster than me, and i got to catch up. We took some time to cross that road outside IMM, which was quite busy road. Kang shoved me to cross the road and i nearly tripped with his shove, if i tripped. i 'll make sure he knock that tree across the road(haha...). Walk through that pitch dark walkway, we thought we could finally reach the interchange by crossing the main road, but we were blocked off by the fences to prevent Jwalk. Awaiting us is the overhead bridge, long flights of stairs.....so lazy to climb. Kang challenged me to climb the stairs to see who climb faster.....prize is "Ice Kachang". I haven't agree, he speeded ahead le, played cheat...unfair...Ice Kachang....next time ba......off.....we went home, he took MRT, i took bus.

Really appreciate that Kang make time to meet up despite he's busy with his revision, during his precious term break. Once in awhile chat on messenger, thanks for being my buddy, Kang. Some of my friends often give exuses that they are busy or last min change mind when meeting up.

孤单自由

孤单的人是不怕寂寞的
孤单的人习惯了独来独往
自由来去不受约束
在自己的世界自由地翱翔
所有打扰自由的人都会变成敌人

败给了害怕的心魔

可能是害怕失去
所以才害怕拥有
明明握在手中的幸福
却因为害怕而放开了手
选择了自由却对你残酷
是我今生无法挽回的错
可望你会回头阻止我选泽了自由
可惜时间不能从来
只希望你能找到你要的幸福
可能是无法拥有才是最完美的

Life Of A Shrooms

I stood alone under the sun
With the pond by my side
No fish swim in it
Breeze blew the taste of autum
When the sun goes I wither
Winter comes snow covers me
Put me into a long deep sleep
Spring comes life grows on me
Life goes on......